10.23.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 11:47 pm by permanentstickingcharm
it’s been four days since i found out i could add an extra three letters after my name. real cool. 
i don’t have a job yet. HAHAHAHA they say it’s normal, because i haven’t taken my oath yet, so i’m in no hurry. five months of reviewing was no joke. and besides, i plan on working in an auditing firm. so any job interview that’s not for an auditing firm is treated as an option (and only just).
i also don’t have money right now. which, again, i could say is normal. after all, i don’t have a job. but it sucks because i could really do with some right now. i want to buy new clothes, new shoes, new accessories, name it.
but these days i’ve got nothing to do and everything to do at the same time. i’ve just been bombarded (in a way) by all these occasions that are coming up (hahaha blow by blow it is..) AND you know me, i love to dress up for the occasion. (it’s a little bit of a requirement for me)
what’s first in my little calendar is a job interview. i don’t have new clothes. thank God for conventions back in my college days, i atleast had some (which means one or two pieces) fairly good corporate attire in my closet.
after that is my graduation. JEEZ. talk about proper chronological order. HAHAHAHA yup. that’s right. my graduation is on the 30th. no dressing required here. we’re supposed to show on our school uniform. I’D VERY MUCH LIKE TO DISOBEY but i just don’t think it’s worth it (well, there goes my conscience eh?) hehehe. 
then there’s ate pam’s wedding (ok, this one i’m doubly excited about.)
i love weddings. i haven’t even met her fiance but hey, i’m sure he’s a good guy. besides, i haven’t seen her in years yet she invited me. and i’m ecstatic for her. 
and FINALLY (assuming nothing else big comes in between), the oathtaking and testimonial dinner is on the 24th of november. november must be a big month for me. i should lose some weight.
not to mention i still have to do the basic things like get a social security number, tax identification number and what not… kinda makes you wanna go back to school right? nah. not really. maybe if i get burnt out from working too much. hahaha i think i’ve made it fairly obvious how excited i am. 
it was, however, a different story four days ago.
after going out all sunday night, i was excpecting maximum sleep before i find out about the results. but what i got was two hours, a blog entry, and i managed to squeeze in some time to watch serendipity on the net (finally!).
so i was feeling a little weird (anxious, tired, and nervous is not a good combination- remember the bubble in my chest? -see last post), AND when the time came for me to go take a bath i had this headache (probably because i was hungry and lacked sleep AND i even had the audacity to watch a film on the net and update my friendster, facebook and blog WHEW. what nice exercise for the tired eyes.)
the ride to school was a little better in a way, because i was a little too tired to feel that bubble in my chest.
when i arrived in recto i was really in the mood for iced coffee (yes, that’s really the right medicine for nervousness. more coffee. HAHAHAHA) but whad’ya know. they only just made it and if i really wanted to i could wait for maybe, 30 minutes? heck. who am i kidding. i just left the store. what’s a dose of coffee gonna do right? i was subconsciously trying to prolong the agony and avoid the inevitable, which was stupid because i did come to school because i wanted to see my name posted on the bulletin board and come to think of it, i was already an hour late. so, yeah.
i already knew i was going to pass. i have a very good intuition. that’s the reason why i had all the guts in the world to scream “CPA NA KO BUKAS!!!” (meaning, “i’m a CPA tomorrow” to all my non pinoy friends…) while riding on a rollercoaster the day before. apart from that, (AND MORE IMPORTANTLY), i had the peace of mind that my prayers gave me. so i knew. and i also knew better that even though you know something, NOTHING will prepare you for the moment when you do FEEL it’s certain. and that means i really did have to go to school that day to see for myself.
my heart was thumping really hard while i climbed the flight of stairs that lead to the fifth floor which became some sort of home for me for the past five months. there were a lot of people there. it was crazy. i had to squeeze into a crowd of people only to find out i was on the wrong side of the bulletin board. HAHAHA the first name i saw was angelo reyes, a classmate of mine who was the best in my class. i felt a surge of happiness for him, he worked hard, that i know.
on to the other side of the bulletin board i went, took me maybe ten minutes to reach less than a meter’s distance hahahaha not to mention the amount of people who started shoving the moment they saw their name combined with the deafening scream/squeal (yeeeeeeeeee!! wooooooooo!!! aaaaaaaaarrggghh!!).
i cried when i saw my name. i think i cried three or four times. it’s insane. hahahaha
apart from all that drama i also had the task of informing a couple of my friends about their results. the happiest part was that both of them passed. atleast i got to bring some good news. it was a very good feeling.
the sad part was some of our friends didn’t make it. and what’s worse is that you can’t really say anything to make them feel better. they were only there momentarily. and i could understand why they wouldn’t want to stay there long.
it really was bittersweet. but the happiness was clearly overflowing. i took home a lot of good feelings brought about by the following:
-a hug from sir ube, with my tears included (he was the first one i knew who was present, so naturally he gets mentioned first.)
-a kiss and a handshake from sir tams (not surprised at all. only on the cheek guys. no fuss)
-two or three handshakes from sir aljon lee (couldn’t get over it i guess! i was technically closer to him than all the reviewers)
-a handshake and a tap on the back from sir dayag.
-a call from my dad (i couldn’t even speak right because i was crying. A LOT.)
-txts from mam gan. (she didn’t know who i was at first. hehehehe she had to ask..)
-hugs from vis and jay fe
-a call from anne (she was crying, she couldn’t believe she passed..)
-a big screamfest with joy (good thing she got to school fast, i was kind of aching for a companion because i really wanted to scream too!)
-three handshakes from my IDOL SIR JAMES. i was extremely happy about this, because i had to take three trips to the office to shake his hands!! it was a little awkward you know. i was alone. and he was in his cubicle, and was surrounded by all these peeps from his school. yeah, i couldn’t muster up the courage to shake his hands in between all those people. finally i got to in my third trip, because he left his cubicle and i was with joy. and i just shook his hand like i was some big, big FAN. hehehehehe
-a kiss and a handshake from sir ireneo. i had to interrupt him too, and he was happy to be interrupted. i was really touched. 
-txts from my friends who congratulated me. awwww THANKS GUYS
so anyway, it has been a great journey and i’m both happy and sad that it’s over. i’ve never experienced and learned and felt so many things all in that span of time. i highly recommend reviewing and taking the exams, by the way (although my opinion may be a little subjective). i think we could all do with a learning experience that could make us a better person AND turn our life around (yup, 360 all the way.)
cheers!
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10.19.08
Posted in life at 11:22 pm by permanentstickingcharm
whew!! i’m so glad the exams are over.. it has been quite an experience… all that studying, or not studying, sleeping really late, eating too much, forgetting to eat.. i never imagined how much of a struggle it really was. i mean, you can always expect things to be hard, but it’s always a different story once you get to experience it.
what’s more, it’s a personal battle within yourself that (it just so happens) everyone else feels as well. it was good to know that we all felt similarly and i bet we still do up to this moment, but in the end it’s still me and myself.
and an hour from now we’ll find out if we made it or not. i have this big bubble inside my chest, that has nothing to do with the fact that i didn’t sleep last night (i have a headache to thank for that), and all this anxious waiting is going to end soon, as all the answers to a lot of my questions will be revealed.
i’m relieved, first of all, because it’s done. i asked God for a lot of things. and when i finished shading that last letter in my answer sheet i basically left it all to Him. it’s his choice if he thinks i should get what i’m asking for. either way, it will be what’s best for me, that i’m sure of.
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06.30.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 2:43 am by permanentstickingcharm
it
has been a month since my review classes began, what can i say?
stressful would be an understatement, but i have to admit i think i’m
not working as hard as i thought i should. i don’t know why that’s so,
and to tell you the truth it’s starting to worry me
i
am a very imaginative person. a dreamer, for short. i find these days i
take a lot of refuge in feel-good, wonderful and in a certain sense,
impossible dreams. 70% of those dreams have nothing to do with me being
a topnotcher in the board exams.
i
don’t like looking at other people right now, because i have learned
not long ago what it can do to me. unfortunately, i haven’t been doing
well looking at my own state of being.
it’s very strange how many things you can experience in a matter of minutes. for example
i
was studying the other day, and some people were making these noises,
what with their voices (high-pitched), it’s just ANNOYING. i couldn’t
understand what i was studying. i just sat there wishing they’d shut up
already. and then i’d get into a little hissy fit inside my brain
getting all worked up and thinking jeez i should blame these people if
i don’t pass the board. i mean, what the heck was that right? it sounds
a bit weird i come to criticize my own thoughts. but i think i’m
getting a little bit too self absorbed, i already half hate myself for
it. cure, anyone?
and then, i came home this weekend feeling all bad about something i had to do but didn’t want to.
i was washing the dishes and suddenly thought, "i want a haircut". and so i got one.
i look great by the way. HAHA
unfortunately
my little moment of joy was short lived. i went to the market, bought
fish, then put the change in my backpocket. and then when i was going
to go buy something else, what do you know. i lost the money. i’m very
sure someone stole it. because i was the one who put the money in my
backpocket. of course it’s supposed to be there.
i lost 120 bucks. what a b*tch right?
i never imagined that i would lose that much money here, where i lived.
i wouldn’t be surprised if i lost it in manila, after all, i already
experienced being robbed twice. i guess it was stupid of me to think
that i wasn’t going to encounter a pickpocket here. shame. i forgot,
life is difficult for everyone right now. it was an opportunity that
basically presented itself, in the mind of the person who stole my
money anyway. that doesn’t make him right, by all means. IF he truly is
a he. i don’t really know. but i never felt any better about it, giving
reason to myself for anyone, or for me. even my parents need that
money. that was supposed to buy us vegetables for dinner. they wouldn’t
be too tight on the budget if it wasn’t for me anyway.
and i don’t ever remember losing that much money out of carelessness before.
and now i’m just really fuming.
it’s been only a month.
i
don’t like how my attitude about things are going right now. i try not
to think too much about it, to tell you the truth, i don’t. but it does
pop in my head every now and then. and back then this was really the
part i was worried about. this five month review. when was the
depression going to kick in? i couldn’t ever tell. and now i’m feeling
it.
so
now i’m just really all tied up with my brain racking up all these
emotions or dreams and what not. and i have written so much already,
and hell, this is SO EMO. jeez.
this is only the first month. it’s c-r-a-z-y.
i’m
probably taking refuge in the wrong things. but anyway, i know this
will pass. this is a big battle within myself. one of my favorite
reviewers said that "your greatest enemy is yourself" (in filipino ha?
:). i’ve experienced that so many times when i was still in school. the
truth is, no amount of preparation can sustain you when the fight is
within. all i need right now is will. smith. (hancock, showing next
wed.) hahaha
just kidding. i believe i owe God an apology. so all i need to do right now is pray. and i’ll be fine after that.
cheers!
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06.16.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 4:37 am by permanentstickingcharm
i just cannot stop talking when i get the chance to.
(but only to those people i’m comfortable with)
i have a knack of ignoring people who i don’t "feel".
simply put, i’m not all smiles, and i’m not friendly either.
i noticed one time when i got talking to a girl (who i got comfy with
because she looked like an old friend of mine- and was nice too,) and
well, got carried away (what with my voice and all, you should hear me
talk. i’m like a machine gun once i get started) a guy who was a few
rows from me (who was kinda checking me out from the first day of
classes- MODESTY ASIDE) looked a little too surprised. HEHEHEHEHE did you even understand what i just said?
i talk too much that even my sister gives up on me (which is purely
understandable, i could go on as late/early as 2 in the morning,
despite the fact that i just got home from a two and a half hour bus
trip and five hours infront of the tv (with cable tv.. i just love
cable tv.)
i suppose it’s my way of releasing stress. especially right now, i have
the guts to write a blog when i still have maybe 30 or so pages of
reading/solving to do. i do require myself to blog once a week just
because. i told ya. i need to release some steam. 
i even wrote some posts in the talking reds forum, about ronaldo moving
and all, i ended up typing about 4 paragraphs. it was insane. go see it
if you want. (talking reds forum in www.manutd.com, there’s a thread
there "what would happen with no ronaldo" page 4 of latest news, my
post is maybe on the last/2nd to the last page- IF YOU CARE. hahahaha)
jeez. anyway, i have a crush on this guy. HMMMM. he’s really cute.
hahaha i’ve seen him before. he’s a little far from where i’m sitting.
but he’s still within eyesight. hahaha
eye candy is good for sore and tired eyes (i have the review to thank for that.)
cheers!
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06.05.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 9:30 pm by permanentstickingcharm
it has been another hectic week. but it’s all good. i’m still trying to
figure out the best way to study… because right now whichever i try i
still doze off easily. weird.
i’m forced to walk a lot everyday. it’s nice except for the part where
naglalaro ako ng patintero para hindi makaapak ng tae ng aso sa daan.
(hehe it’s a little gross. hehe so never you mind. but if you should
bother, it has something to do with dogs.)
i meet my friends from my old school every wednesdays and fridays. it’s
these times that i really know that they’re my real friends. because
it’s as if we never parted.
i really miss watching cnn.
i’m really sorry for hillary. i think we’re gonna be able to say who’s
going to win the general elections now. change is the name of the game.
as her supporter though, i just really really wish she hadn’t said some
things. but hey, it’s all been done.
i really really really miss watching sportscenter (south african
edition) and espn soccernet press pass. i only get to watch once a
week, not twice. hmm…
and i’m not going to be able to watch formula one races either. except
maybe when the races get to asia where the time zone’s a little more
friendly. (i leave home sunday afternoon, and european races are on at
usually 7 in the evening… and my sister doesn’t have cable tv.
huhuhuu)
anyway, i’m really enjoying the review. i think it’s because right now
it’s a little far away and i can afford to sleep more than i’m supposed
to.
cheers!
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05.29.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 8:43 pm by permanentstickingcharm
jeeezz..one week gone and here i am. gotta spill some juice right?
first of all, it’s not too hectic yet, and the evidence for that? i’m blogging.
i love
the review atmosphere. there’s no requirement to be close to
anyone/talk to anyone or whatever. it’s mind your own business. really
nice.
i also love the fact that i still see my closest friends.
i love the everyday "trek" up the stairs to the 5th floor of the CMFFI (or is it CMMFI, whatever) building.
mrs. ireneo should establish a comedy bar, she’s so funny. swear.
the
reason why i love the "minding my own business" atmosphere is because
there is just too much stress to go around for me to even care about
what’s going on with other people. besides, the last thing i need is
insecurity.
i miss cable tv. i don’t even know up to this moment (and it’s friday by the way) who won the monaco grand prix.
and i don’t know what’s going on in the news (i mean cnn and bbc.)
still,
this first week is good. i’m still trying to figure out the best way to
approach my sleeping time (because i end up sleeping more if i don’t)
BUT i think i’ll have a good idea by next week.
to cut things short, i’m doing fine, thanks for asking (as if right? hehehe).
gotta go! 
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05.23.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 3:19 am by permanentstickingcharm
yesterday was my final day in school. it was weird. nothing special happened. I didn’t even see most of my close friends.
but there was a bitter feeling when i left that day .. i guess i already knew that i was going to leave without some special event happening. besides, i was one of the people who got left behind. technically i was the one who had chasing to do.
i wasn’t at all sad about it, maybe because i was stil ecstatic about the man utd win….. heheheheh i woke up at 2 in the morning. the match finished somewhere around 5 or 6. i can hardly remember. all i know is that i was really happy that day. that was the first time i watched a champion’s league final by the way.
hahahaha i guess this year is the right year to be a man utd fan… i only began watching football early this year. i first heard man utd from a friend back in their ‘99 glory days, because that friend of mine loved david beckham. i dunno what took me so long to be interested in watching football. i played it when i got the chance at school,though..
but anyway. so what. i love ‘em now and i’ll love ‘em tomorrow. i’m trying to catch up with all that history too.
speaking of catching up, my review classes start on monday. i only found a place to stay a little while ago after lunch. unlike most of my batchmates, i never had the luxury of relaxing and i never will because i have so much to do now more than ever. i’m aiming for the top people, wish me the best eh? (just a request…… hehehehe)
because of that i won’t be able to log on as often as i used to, please bear with me. to all my friends who i always keep in touch with, i really must focus with this, i hope you’ll understand. i’m gonna log in every now and then (hahaha i’m just making sure my account won’t expire) but there won’t be any comments and/or replies from me for a while. SAME GOES WITH MY PHONE.
i’ll be out for about five months, and i’m really gonna miss you all!!
that’s it! i’m done! after 9 schools and a little over 16 years. i’m done.
thanks mom and dad, i love you
thanks to my sisters
thanks to my tito jun for the support, we wouldn’t have managed without your help
thanks to all my classmates and those who are STILL my friends to this day
thanks to all my teachers and my professors who just made my school life SPLENDID.
thanks to all those a**holes and B**ches like me who cared to give a sh*T
hehehehe
thanks to all the people who represented my competition. it’s not over yet friends. the board exam’s not til OCTOBER.. see ya then
thanks to all the resa reviewers who showed me where i truly must be.
thanks to the authors of the books that i bought, may they be pirated or original (hahaha)
thanks to the people who probably weren’t my friends at all but made an impact in my life.
THANK YOU MAM MELITA DALUSONG. you made me into someone better this summer. i will never forget that. i did lack the words to say these to you and i will say them on november. i love you lots.
finally, i thank GOD because there is no one who deserves my thanks more.
it’s been a great journey. and i’m going somewhere else now. i have a lot of hope, and i know it’s going to be good.
CHEERS!
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04.22.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 11:54 pm by permanentstickingcharm
junior
school: araullo university – phinma education network (yeah yeah i know. too long.)
the reason for my transfer was simple: i wasn’t allowed to live away from my parents.
SO!
here goes.moving is second nature to me. i had two high schools. and
this time saw me in the same scenario. right about the same time too,
mind you. (1st and 2nd year, then 3rd and 4th year… get the drift?)
my
first class in the first day of school was general inorganic chemistry.
it’s a minor subject (with 5 units, what a load of crap right? hehe) i
knew this was a subject that first year students take, and since i knew
that i was already a junior; naturally i was the noisiest of the lot. i
HAD TO, dammit. hahaha. gotta snatch the chance to make friends right?
that
was the easy part. when the time came for me to meet my REAL classmates
(those in the same year as i) i was a bit more reserved. i didn’t wanna
rub anyone the wrong way because i knew the people i was going to meet
already knew each other for more than a year or so. yeah. i became
pretty quiet. haha.
the
hardest part for me was figuring out which group to join in.. because
there were only a few people in my class at that time and it seemed
like there were only two groups.
anne
was the first person to start a conversation with me, and somewhere
along the middle i think i ran out of words… haha. it was a little
awkward at first. jhoana was the first person who befriended me.i chose
to go with the group of “irregular students” aka transferees (which
jhoana was a part of even though she was a regular student…). i’m
quite glad i did thank you very much.
my
accounting subjects were advanced accounting 1 and 2, and financial
accounting part 3 (constructive accounting).my professors in those
subjects were mrs. alfaro, mrs. modesto and mr. siborboro.
it’s CLOBBERIN’ TIME! hahaha
i
could not EVER help myself from comparing my professors from my profs
in plm. it didn’t take me very long to realize how good my prof in
advac 2 was.
it
took me a little longer to realize that my prof in finac 3 was a lot
better than i thought. he wowed me . and i respected him a lot after
that.
i shall say no more. hAHAHAAH
i
also had some issues back then, because one of my professors blatantly
showed favoritism. i hated it. funny enough, i found myself aching for
her acceptance/attention. haha (she’s one of my favorite profs, despite
all that..)
i
also had a first dose of atty sanqui. it was a bit of a nightmare. it
even got to a point where i cried. he would be my professor for the
rest of my law subjects, by the way. after that i just got used to it.
apparently i was his favorite.
i was a trooper back then. i always did my assignments, and most of the time i got the highest score in quizzes/exams.
during
the second semester, however, i found myself in the company of second
year students because i had to take financial accounting part 2 (again)
because i lacked three units. jeeheez.i found out it wasn’t that bad,
because
1. i met my closest friend
2. i fell in love (shoot. this part sucks actually) – not with the guy in no.1 ok
apart
from all that drama we also had qualifying exams that sem. the exams
were held on March, but i started reviewing my lessons as early as
January. it paid off, because i got the highest score. it felt really
weird to see my name all over the bulletin board, but I loved it. 
i
believe that, and my little relationship up there were the most
significant things that happened to me during my third year. i learned
that nothing, absolutely nothing (!) can compensate preparation. i beat
the best in our year level because i was prepared for the exams. i
could’ve even done better, to tell you the truth.
i really got to measure how much honesty and trust really mattered to me. (note: a LOT.)
summer was really boring, but i did get a lot of time to fix my then-boring friendster account and make my own myspace account.
my
friends, mira and amrik got married. i was really happy for them! i
love weddings.. people are extremely more beautiful on their wedding
day.
senior
school:same
this
year saw me a different person in the course of two semesters. the
first sem, i was a mess spiritually. my faith was all tangled up. and i
was depressed half the time. i was, however, studying like there’s no
tomorrow. but that was only at the beginning.
i
also became a jpia officer (senior treasurer). i lost weight because
half the time i would walk the school grounds during break and collect
membership fees. haha. most of the time i felt like i was the only one
doing everything.(and to a certain extent, i was..). it was strange. i
guess because i lost the first time i ran for office, i felt like i
really deserved the position i was in and was determined to do
everything for the org. some students even thought that i was the
president. hahaha.
i
had a few arguments with the org president, and after a while i decided
i was wasting my time (he doesn’t know how to listen.. haha). i decided
to let him take the reigns, and we got along just fine after that.
sometimes you just can’t change people. 
i
loved my professor, mam gan. she was sweet and she gave us the hardest
exams too . hahahaha she was the type of professor who was too nice you
can’t help but take advantage of, but wouldn’t because you love her a
little too much.
i
also became really close with allan and anne that sem. back then i
hated allan, and i thought anne was really nice, but i never thought
i’d be closer to either of them.
there
were issues among two of my friends, and the rest of us who weren’t
involved felt it was up to us to get them talking because the anger
wasn’t there anymore, just the pride.
in between all this commotion, i would come back to manila every now and then, just to see my beloved mujeres and red. 
as
always, there was competition among us students. this was the sem where
i absolutely got tired of studying law. i used to like it, but i think
four law subjects with atty. sanqui were maybe a little too much. i
lost all interest, and found myself at the middle of the class where i
always held the top spot and the praises of the prof. i ended up paying
for it too, but at that point i really didn’t care.
this
was also the sem that the best in my class (gelo) got back to his
senses and started studying again, much to our dismay, because that
meant we didn’t have a chance of beating him.
i
did beat him, just once. but the bulletin board that showed the results
of the departmental exams had his name on top of almost every exam. my
place was below his name (except for the one exam where it was the
other way around), and that was when my mind began to slowly concede
defeat to him in the coming mock board examinations.
the
second sem was different. i lost a lot of confidence, and i found
myself dragging myself to study (and i end up not studying) for the
mock board. i had a lot of blows that sem, because there were so many
things happening one after the other.all i had that sem were dreams.
and i had nothing left in me to act on them.
the best part of that sem was the review sessions with the resa reviewers. they were HELLA GOOD. 
the
feasibility study was another one of those things that had me stressed
all semester. our defense was a mess all because of the balance sheet a
certain someone messed up. i was so angry at him, it was as if all the
hard work that the rest of the group had put in was in vain. it was
real stupid of me to think that i could trust him to do that. i guess i
failed in that department.
it
also took me another trip to manila before i made up my mind on which
review school to go to, because i was having second thoughts about
where.
i
learned not long ago how important preparation was, but i failed to do
it. the result was a third spot of the five who managed to pass the
mockboard. it was dismal. trust me. i knew enough what i needed to do
but i didn’t do it. shame. there goes the spot i had learned to accept.
i didn’t even get the second spot. 
we
finished our exams way before everyone else, and we had a lot of time
on our hands. all that was left was the time that they were going to
leave the school.
i
rarely get left behind. i was always the one leaving people. i’ve
already accepted that i still had the summer to go before i can finally
finish. but you can never set your mind to what you’re eventually going
to feel when the moment comes.
i
was incredibly emotional during their graduation (i wasn’t crying), i
couldn’t figure out what i was feeling, which was somewhere along the
middle of extremely happy and slightly lonely.
everyone
left, even my friends in plm, and in part i thank god i wasn’t there on
their graduation. i’d have felt incredibly lonely.
i
still have the summer to go, and that’ll be the final part of these
posts. i will have my own time. congratulations my friends!
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03.24.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 7:17 pm by permanentstickingcharm
i’m not graduating ’til june (or november- i can only suppose right now because it all depends) , but most of my classmates are graduating on april 11, so.. yeah. gotta write.
funny. i think this post is more about me than about them, who’ll be leaving me soon. and will go some other place. or not.
there are some who’ll take the path that is expected of most of us, and that is the review for the cpa board exams (the review starts on may, and the exams are in october)
but anyway, i’m not looking to the future just yet. i still have a few months to go.
freshman
school: pamantasan ng lungsod ng maynila (university of the city of manila)
this was a thrill, really. PLM is one of the most popular schools in manila because the entrance exams are hard, they release the results really late and well, it is one of the best public universities in the philippines. 
one more thing. my tuition is only fifty bucks.
my first class on the first day was PE. the first person i spoke to is jacque. the first person who i greeted was shelai (she was late.. and unlike some of the people in my class, she didn’t seem to know anyone else).
my first group of friends consisted of shelai, ate faye and jacque.
jeanny ong was the prettiest in my class. (i believe she still is, hehe)
editha (and her friends) were the ones i was scared to rub elbows with. (this was really stupid of me. they’re the best. we had a chance to get to know each other in our little dance in PE)
i got my first taste of accounting. fundamentals of accounting part 1. my prof was mrs. sabater. she was so strict.. but i loved her.
i remember my first practice set. i remember making several holes on the pages for erasing too much. hehe. and in the end i wasn’t able to do the whole thing right. i knew, because my trial balance wasn’t balanced. i still have that practice set. but i never dared to try doing it again.
this was also the time when people started to shine above everyone else. among those who i only noticed because of their excellence, were benilda garcia, jhimmy gara jr. (who’s graduating magna cum laude- bless his heart, i’m his no.1 fan!!), jansell trinidad and mark anthony aguilar (who i thought was really cute back then, coz’ he hardly spoke… heheheh now i think he’s just too thin. hahaha)
i loved humanities because of my prof, ms. sheherazade. she graduated from UP and she gave us the hardest quizzes ever.. but i got a 1.5, cool.
i was also emotionally wrecked before the end of the first semester because i was about to fail college algebra. i hate algebra. but i did try, i F*CKING SWEAR. i did. i cried my guts out. (if you get a failing grade (5) you’re out of the BSA program. so you can just imagine how devastated i was…)
i got a three. that’s a little shy of the failing grade (ie. highest is 1, then 1.25, 1.5, 1.75, 2, 2.25, 2.5, 2.75, then 3, then 5). but i’m glad.
i also had a moment in typing class, which displayed my utter selfishness. haha. looking back now i realize how immature i was back then. i’m still a little selfish now i gotta admit.
i had a choice of joining CWTS or ROTC. i joined ROTC. and i wasn’t just a cadet. i was part of the radio unit.
this was also the sem when we had an activity in PE where we had to dance. we danced to “all i want is your love” by INOJ. hahaha i loved it. i still love dancing though i don’t get to do it much.
i loved dancing so much that i took up modern jazz the next sem for PE.
fundamentals of accounting 2 saw me again with prof. sabater. there were three blocks in the BSA program, i was in the 2nd block.
i remember prof. sta. ana. he taught psychology, which easily became one of my favorite subjects. he was one of the best professors ever.
this was the sem that i discovered one of my closest friends’ talent for drawing. his name is red. i also got to know kyle, the guitar man. he’s so cool. hehehe
meanwhile, jhimmy was in the first block, and he got a 1.00 in fundac 2. we sometimes checked their papers, and well, he was only making 0 mistakes.
we also had to memorize so many freakin’ scientific names. i didn’t memorize them all. because i hated it. hahaha i tried though. red got a perfect score back then.
we also had several presentations in ROTC which consisted of standing and marching in the heat of the sun (my skin got really really dark). i also had a crush on ryan. hahaha he was part of our little radio group. i don’t remember his last name. but he’s my friend in friendster (let’s hope to god he doesn’t read this. hahahahaha). i made really good friends in rotc. i also had a crush on del fierro (now i forgot THIS guy’s first name!). he was an officer. hahaha i think he knew. but jeez. i wonder how much of that matters right now.
i got good grades this sem too. i got close to 1.00. my highest was 1.25 (psych.), and a 1.5 in fundac 2. it gave my average a boost, and i qualified for the dean’s list.
sophomore
school: same (block 1)
this was one of the hardest parts of my college life. because of financial (intermediate)accounting. whew.
mrs. nonalyn gesalan was my prof. she looked like she could eat us alive. seriously. hahaha i was scared of her. but i wanted to please her more than anything. she had an air of sweet devilish terrorism that was actually only just a first impression. she was as sweet as a pea. i loved her too. hahahaha. by the way, her handwriting was the best. i still try to imitate her handwriting on the blackboard (i never managed to get close. i have good handwriting. you can just imagine how much better hers is.) she’s the dean of the college of accountancy and economics in plm now, by the way. 
there came a shift of friendships, because our friend, jacque got separated from us, and we (me, shelai and ate faye) managed to get ourselves some new friends namely, jansell and jeanny.
i took up badminton in PE. loved it.
i had a gay prof. he was so much fun.
i also got my first 1.00 (political science). i had to memorize the bill of rights. (i don’t remember all of it now. only little parts.)
i remember having such a hard time with financial accounting. this was also the time that they implemented the zero- based grading system. it just sucked the life out of all of us. hahahaha a little exaggerated. but we always cried when our results came out. we would have quizzes every after topic. it had 15 problems. you get 11, you fail. 3 was the maximum amount of error, and looking back, i was averaging at about 6 to 9 errors per quiz. yeah. i know. i got a 27% once. i think it was on the very first quiz. 
this sem was also the first time that i stayed up all night just to answer an assignment. i never ever did that before. back then, i’d go on til the wee hours of the morning, but i’d sleep for a couple of hours before going to school. what topic? inventory.
and because i didn’t sleep for the first time i learned this:
- you look like sh*t despite the fact that you had a nice, long, warm shower.
- in the middle of the day, your energy is boundless, you feel like you’re drugged and wanna jump up and down or laugh uncontrollably.
- your hair and face are having a field day producing excessive amounts of oil.
- it only takes five minutes after lying down at the end of the day before you start snoring because of exhaustion.
my favorite topic in financial accounting 1 is investment in bonds.
by the way, we held departmental exams on a sunday. i passed the subject, but it was one of my lowest grades that sem. 2.25.
memorable people: clara francesca diamzon. the best class president ever.
my new classmates who transferred from the BSBA program. i personally didn’t like ‘em at the beginning. i’m very territorial. but they ended up being the nicest people in the world. yumyum. hahahaha
the second semester was another dose of financial accounting, served by mam gesalan of course. i was basically in love with her by this time. hahahaha she couldn’t do anything wrong.
i was finally doing something right too. i did better on my quizzes. i think i only managed to fail two or something.
my favorite topic in financial accounting 2 is bonds payable.
i hated (and still do) shareholder’s equity.
i did better in finac than last sem. i got a 2.
i remember sir cabauatan. he’d write on the board and solve math problems like he was speaking to himself. hehehe he’s adorable though. my classmates, kyle and red do the best impressions of him. i don’t think he knows. or maybe he does!
another prof worth mentioning (who muddled my principles in life and made me see some things in a new light) was mr. allan jay natividad. he taught philosophy. he graduated from UP too. UP profs are real cool. hahaha
i had a substitute prof who had a little grudge with accountants. we liked him a lot though. we were trying to figure out if he was gay or straight. hehehehe
i took up table tennis in PE. i regretted it. lesson learned: don’t choose something just because “if you chose the other option you’d have no one else with you.”
this was the sem when red drew the anime version of me.
this was also the sem when i ran for an office in JPIA (vp-communications). i lost. i was the only one who lost among all my classmates who ran for office, and i cried really really hard.. hahahaha i couldn’t help it. i knew i wasn’t gonna win. but no amount of personal realization can prepare you for the feeling that’ll hit you when you do get the news. hehehe.
this was the semester that our group (jansell, shelai, jeanny, ate faye and me) got the name “pamilya mujeres” thanks to jhimmy’s letter to the whole class. he gave every group a name. hehehe
the second year was also the time when we started our little “family” thing. hehehe it’s sort of an affectionate name calling… not true of course. but we loved it a lot. my mother is jansell. my sisters are honey, cristine and i have a little brother, albert. i also got my own kids too. hahahaha i have five. rowe, jay, sarah, kc and kenneth (twins). we were just fooling around. hehehehe. shelai has kids too, james was one of them. i don’t know who else, i forgot, hehehe
i had no idea that second sem was my last in that school. i even managed to enroll for the first semester of the third year. whoopsies.
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02.29.08
Posted in Uncategorized at 12:34 am by permanentstickingcharm
this post is strictly for my friendster friends only. uy saya. redundancy is the best policy.
bakit? e gusto ko e. nu ba care mo..
when this year began i already knew what i was going to do… but somewhere along the way, i got lost. really really lost.
araw nalang ang natitira. mock board na. hindi linggo. kasi parang niloloko ko lang sarili ko kahit na alam ko na meron pa atang isang linggo mahigit. siguro para ipressure ko sarili ko. baka sakaling magsipag ako kung merong "urgency".
nawawalan na ako ng confidence. hehe kung kilala mo ako e baka gusto mo akong sampalin ngayon. di kasi uso sakin yung hindi makapal yung mukha diba!!
pero sa totoo lang. ganyan ang nararamdaman ko. and what’s worse, parang consciously/unconsciously hinahanda ko na sarili ko. hindi para pumasa with flying colors (aka top 1, which is what i had intended to do mula nung nauso mock board sa amin…), kundi pumasa lang.
at ang nakakatawa pa, salita ako ng salita dito. drama rama sa hapon (hapon dito e bakit ba.) pero at the end of the day wala din naman akong nagagawa para mapabuti ako.
uwi. kain. nood tv. tulog.
pakiramdam ko hindi na ako yung babaeng pumasok nung 4th year. na hindi halos natutulog magawa lang yung assignment.
na tipong lahat ng end of chapter questions sinasagutan.
na top 1 lagi. sa lahat ng subject. ano ba.. career nga diba. hahaha
seryoso. masarap pagtawanan. pero sa loob ko nag aalala talaga ako.
kasi kahit na feeling ko hindi na ako yung taong uuwi, kakain, manonood ng tv at matutulog (take note: i do this kahit na merong exam kinabukasan…), e sino ba yon kung di ako rin! hahahahahaha
ano ba. tawa nanaman ako ng tawa.
sabi sakin ng friend ko, ang sarili ko ang matindi kong kalaban. nakakatawa nga. sarap ko sanang suntukin e. baka sakaling bumangon na ako ng alas 10 para magreview instead na patayin yung alarm at guess what? matulog ulet. galing.
truth is, i’m just really really REALLY frustrated. (obvious ba.)
hahaaaayyyy.
tapos! eto pa.
alam mo, i gave up on you a long, long time ago.
so sana, sana lang. wag kang feeling.
cheers!!
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